March is quickly approaching and I find myself in the same old rut I've been in most of my life. Trying to lose weight and stick to healthy lifestyle habits. Why can't I lose the weight? Why can't I be more disciplined and stick to healthy eating habits? Why can't I get my ass up and go to the gym or do something? What is holding me back from living my best life? Why can't I love myself enough to take care of my body?
Fear of failure. I feel like I've already failed and I haven't really begun. I always set these goals that I never achieve when it comes to weight loss. I don't understand why this one area of my life I'm failing at. I feel like when it comes to my school, work and family life. I've set goals and work hard to achieve them and I do. What are these layers of fat hiding? What are they protecting me from? Why can't I just let them go?
This blog post has lots more questions than answers. I need time to ponder those emotional reasons that are holding me back from losing the weight. I know I can be a physically healthy person, I've been a physically healthy person at one time in my life.
Somethings gotta give, I can't maintain this trajectory and expect that I'm going to be okay. I can feel how angry my body is at me with each stair I climb and how stiff my knees and back are from the pounds of pressure it should not have to carry around. My goal this month is to get my body moving again. Lesley and I went to the gym today and it felt AMAZING! We have scheduled out the next 4 weeks for workouts which is great! Lesley I know we can do this! I'm so proud of the weight you've already lost and I'm hoping we can lose more together!
Sasha
Those are all important questions to ask yourself! I have definitely asked myself (and still do) many times! Sometimes we just really need to take the time and think about what we've been doing, and meditate on changing.
ReplyDeleteWe also have to stop doubting ourselves and think, "we WILL lose more weight!"