but this time, it's different.
Rather than feeling motivated to lose weight to be healthy...I'm feeling SCARED. I've been plateaued at 190-195 lbs for awhile now. That was always my heaviest weight, and I knew it was getting REAL close to 200, which nobody wants, unless you're a male professional athlete who NEEDS to have that weight (which is probably muscle for them anyway).
With my newest promotion at work, I thought it would put a stop to my frequent visits to fast food places. I didn't think I'd be on the run as frequently as I was during my last position. And I thought I'd have packed lunches at my desk most of the week. Well, I've been eating fast food like it's my job, for the past couple months. I could start feeling my pants getting tighter, my muffin top getting bigger, my face getting rounder...
I went to the doctor's office yesterday and got weighed in and I weighed 208. gross. That's all I have to say. I usually weigh myself in the mornings, naked, before I jump in the shower...so that's me on an empty stomach. So 208 MIGHT be a couple pounds higher than if I weighed myself at home that morning. But either way...NOT HEALTHY.
I've never felt so afraid before, regarding my weight and my health.
Last night, Sasha and I went to the gym, and we rode the bike and it was tougher than I thought. I rode the bike on "random" for 20 minutes, then I did the basic elliptical for 10 minutes. It was really tiring, seeing as how I haven't worked out in such a long time...and I've gained weight...but I kept going because I knew that I was sweating a lot, which means I'm working out...and I NEED to get it done.
So cheers, to me, for a successful sweaty workout.
Today, I am making a promise...I will lose weight. I'm not promising how many pounds I'll lose or any specific goals about my weight...just that I will lose some weight. I need to make a lifestyle change.
Here are some things I will work on starting immediately:
* cut out fast food (healthier salad choices are okay)
* workout (gym, outdoor activities/sports, exercise apps on my phone for quick workouts, etc)
* be more mindful when picking foods (not so much junk food, picking better options at restaurants, etc)
* BLOG the truth about my progress
It's also important for me to know that if I make a bad decision one day - my life is not over...I just have to know what I did, and move on from that mistake, rather than give up.
Today, I slept in, and I had a protein shake for breakfast with a lot of water. For lunch, which I'm about to eat, I will have grilled chicken and baked sweet potato wedges made from home, and blueberries.
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