March is quickly approaching and I find myself in the same old rut I've been in most of my life. Trying to lose weight and stick to healthy lifestyle habits. Why can't I lose the weight? Why can't I be more disciplined and stick to healthy eating habits? Why can't I get my ass up and go to the gym or do something? What is holding me back from living my best life? Why can't I love myself enough to take care of my body?
Fear of failure. I feel like I've already failed and I haven't really begun. I always set these goals that I never achieve when it comes to weight loss. I don't understand why this one area of my life I'm failing at. I feel like when it comes to my school, work and family life. I've set goals and work hard to achieve them and I do. What are these layers of fat hiding? What are they protecting me from? Why can't I just let them go?
This blog post has lots more questions than answers. I need time to ponder those emotional reasons that are holding me back from losing the weight. I know I can be a physically healthy person, I've been a physically healthy person at one time in my life.
Somethings gotta give, I can't maintain this trajectory and expect that I'm going to be okay. I can feel how angry my body is at me with each stair I climb and how stiff my knees and back are from the pounds of pressure it should not have to carry around. My goal this month is to get my body moving again. Lesley and I went to the gym today and it felt AMAZING! We have scheduled out the next 4 weeks for workouts which is great! Lesley I know we can do this! I'm so proud of the weight you've already lost and I'm hoping we can lose more together!
Sasha
Tuesday, February 26, 2013
Sunday, February 3, 2013
Another month...
Goodbye, January...Hello February.
I've been using the Herbalife products since last Friday, and I lost 3 additional pounds! This brings me to a total of 13 pounds lost!!!! I weighed in this morning at 172 which I haven't seen in YEARS! I'm so excited. I also did my measurements today, and apparently since 7/27/12, I've lost a total of 13 pounds and 22.25 inches!!!! holy shit!
From looking at my measurements, I lost a little everywhere. However, the biggest lost, were my lower thighs (right above the knee), then my tummy. I lost about 4-5.5 in each thigh, and 3 inches on my tummy. Yes, I started a running program with my girlfriends, but I'm still in the very early process of the program...is it possible that I lost that many inches, JUST from moving my legs a little more? Either way...wow...I won't complain, is all I have to say.
I now have a blender, and I've been in regular contact lately, with Elizabeth, the lady who is high up on my Herbalife chain...and she was generous enough to share her smoothie shop's recipes for my 3 favorite recipes: Blueberry Almond, White Chocolate Raspberry, and Vanilla Almond Latte. I'm so excited to be able to make those from home.
I'd also like to state that I still haven't been to a fast food place since my "fast food no more" entry in November. I'm very proud of myself for being able to stay clear from those places. It may seem silly to some people, but to me, it's just beating a temptation.
I guess the only goal I have for this month, is to continue using my Herbalife 2 shakes/smoothies a day program. I have no idea how many pounds I will lose from this, so I will just continue using it.
I've been using the Herbalife products since last Friday, and I lost 3 additional pounds! This brings me to a total of 13 pounds lost!!!! I weighed in this morning at 172 which I haven't seen in YEARS! I'm so excited. I also did my measurements today, and apparently since 7/27/12, I've lost a total of 13 pounds and 22.25 inches!!!! holy shit!
From looking at my measurements, I lost a little everywhere. However, the biggest lost, were my lower thighs (right above the knee), then my tummy. I lost about 4-5.5 in each thigh, and 3 inches on my tummy. Yes, I started a running program with my girlfriends, but I'm still in the very early process of the program...is it possible that I lost that many inches, JUST from moving my legs a little more? Either way...wow...I won't complain, is all I have to say.
I now have a blender, and I've been in regular contact lately, with Elizabeth, the lady who is high up on my Herbalife chain...and she was generous enough to share her smoothie shop's recipes for my 3 favorite recipes: Blueberry Almond, White Chocolate Raspberry, and Vanilla Almond Latte. I'm so excited to be able to make those from home.
I'd also like to state that I still haven't been to a fast food place since my "fast food no more" entry in November. I'm very proud of myself for being able to stay clear from those places. It may seem silly to some people, but to me, it's just beating a temptation.
I guess the only goal I have for this month, is to continue using my Herbalife 2 shakes/smoothies a day program. I have no idea how many pounds I will lose from this, so I will just continue using it.
Monday, January 28, 2013
Herbalife Journey
Sasha and I were introduced to Herbalife last Spring. We've gone regularly to the nutrition club, which we call the "smoothie shop" because they make the most delicious smoothies! Overtime, I decided to become an independent distributor/consultant. I did it for selfish reasons...to get the automatic 25% discount. I told them that I didn't want to actively sell the products, and that I just pretty much wanted the discount. Apparently a lot of people do that. Anyways...that was awhile ago.
Anne and I ordered some more products and we were talking about losing weight and my Herbalife opportunities, and we kind of made a pact in the end. We decided that we would try the Herbalife program/plan. To lose weight, they suggest that you replace a smoothie/shake for a meal, twice a day while eating a healthy/sensible meal for the 3rd meal. I'm most likely going to do a shake for breakfast and lunch most of the time, or maybe lunch and dinner because I love me some fried eggs for breakfast :) We're going to see if we can do this, and we're both very curious to see how much weight we actually lose in a month. I started this new Herbalife regimen on Friday January 25th, and she started hers on Saturday January 26th. We've both been encouraging each other and I'm really excited to see the outcome.
One of the reasons why I am excited to see the outcome is because I've been struggling financially for the past year and I seem to be getting rejected from the few part time places I've applied to so far. One of the people very high in my Herbalife chain told me that if I have 3-4 clients, I could pretty much get my products for free. This would save me a lot of money, from buying my products myself. If I had more clients than that..I could claim the rest in a check form. And how hard can it be to find 3-4 clients? However, IF I were to go down that route...I'd want to try the program first and lose weight to believe it myself, and to prove that they can do it too.
So here is to a new adventure!
And an update on my running adventure: I last ran with Sasha and Amy on Monday January 14th. I had the flu that week and didn't feel healthy enough to run again. PLUS...the weather freaked out and it was below zero for most of the past 2 weeks I think. Well, at least last week. The week I had the flu, I didn't know much of what was going on in the real world. Anyways, I still have a cough and a leaky nose, but I feel a LOT healthier now. Tomorrow is supposed to be in the 30's and I will run if the bottom layer of the roads aren't too icy. Otherwise I could try the treadmill at the gym :(
Anne and I ordered some more products and we were talking about losing weight and my Herbalife opportunities, and we kind of made a pact in the end. We decided that we would try the Herbalife program/plan. To lose weight, they suggest that you replace a smoothie/shake for a meal, twice a day while eating a healthy/sensible meal for the 3rd meal. I'm most likely going to do a shake for breakfast and lunch most of the time, or maybe lunch and dinner because I love me some fried eggs for breakfast :) We're going to see if we can do this, and we're both very curious to see how much weight we actually lose in a month. I started this new Herbalife regimen on Friday January 25th, and she started hers on Saturday January 26th. We've both been encouraging each other and I'm really excited to see the outcome.
One of the reasons why I am excited to see the outcome is because I've been struggling financially for the past year and I seem to be getting rejected from the few part time places I've applied to so far. One of the people very high in my Herbalife chain told me that if I have 3-4 clients, I could pretty much get my products for free. This would save me a lot of money, from buying my products myself. If I had more clients than that..I could claim the rest in a check form. And how hard can it be to find 3-4 clients? However, IF I were to go down that route...I'd want to try the program first and lose weight to believe it myself, and to prove that they can do it too.
So here is to a new adventure!
And an update on my running adventure: I last ran with Sasha and Amy on Monday January 14th. I had the flu that week and didn't feel healthy enough to run again. PLUS...the weather freaked out and it was below zero for most of the past 2 weeks I think. Well, at least last week. The week I had the flu, I didn't know much of what was going on in the real world. Anyways, I still have a cough and a leaky nose, but I feel a LOT healthier now. Tomorrow is supposed to be in the 30's and I will run if the bottom layer of the roads aren't too icy. Otherwise I could try the treadmill at the gym :(
Monday, January 14, 2013
GETTING BACK ON THE HORSE
I lost 2 lbs. this week! I really can't believe it I've been doing my Slim in 6 videos everyday and Lesley, Amy and I are doing our running room program. Day 1 of week 2 accomplished. I'm still not doing the best with my eating, although I have reduced the amount I eat, I still am indulging in not so good foods. I think I need to plan my meals better. but I started a calendar of workouts and there are a lot of smiley faces on it so far:-) I know I'm going to keep losing weight if I stick to the plan and work on my goals a little at a time. Thanks Lesley for keeping me accountable!
Run week 2- day 1
Today...
Hill, Sash, and I, did our Week 2-Day 1 run. It's actually The Running Room's Learn to Run's first week. It was a 1:1 interval. It was tougher than last week, just because we shaved off a whole extra minute of walking. But it was still do-able. We did it.
I'm very proud of us! Go team!
Hill, Sash, and I, did our Week 2-Day 1 run. It's actually The Running Room's Learn to Run's first week. It was a 1:1 interval. It was tougher than last week, just because we shaved off a whole extra minute of walking. But it was still do-able. We did it.
I'm very proud of us! Go team!
Saturday, January 12, 2013
Running update
I started to run again. Or I should say...I started to learn to run again.
I recently decided I'd try to sign up for a 5k. This will be my first 5k. Anne wanted to walk it...which I believe she will...but my mentality is: if I sign up for a 5k...I'm running it. So I'll do my best. This is actually good motivation because it means I'd have to learn to run 5k before the race...which I will have paid for a few months before it happens. So I'm gonna have to do it.
This week, I did the run 1min/walk 2min intervals.
I did it Monday with Amy, Wednesday with Amy & Sasha, and Friday with Kyan (Anne's dog). I did every run outside, with the purpose of getting used to hitting pavement. I'm very proud of myself for having completed an entire week's worth of running practices. I think the second run (Wed) was the toughest on my body. I was tired (lack of sleep last weekend and early week), sore from Mon's run and taiko on Tue, and cranky from work. I've been able to relax a tiny bit more since then, and I've been stretching a lot...which I think helped tonight's run.
I'm excited to learn to run with my pals, and I really feel like this is it. This is the time I'll finally finish the running program. I probably won't increase the intervals every week like the Running Room's classes did...but I hope I can get my 3 runs in every week, no matter what interval I'm working on.
MOTIVATION REMINDER:
Sasha & Amy (my running partners for this week) - We can't give up if we don't get the 3 runs in every week. We just need to do our best. All of our lives are busy and stressful and complicated at times. And sometimes, we just need a day off to do absolutely nothing. So we have to remind eachother not to get discouraged if we don't get 3 runs in a week. Also, I'm here with you...if you only get 1 or 2 runs in one week and need to continue the same interval the following week...I'm doing it with you. It's only more practice...I won't be losing anything. We can take our time doing this.
And Sasha - we made a pact to help eachother lose weight. Let's do our best and let's stick with our guts to lose our guts!
I recently decided I'd try to sign up for a 5k. This will be my first 5k. Anne wanted to walk it...which I believe she will...but my mentality is: if I sign up for a 5k...I'm running it. So I'll do my best. This is actually good motivation because it means I'd have to learn to run 5k before the race...which I will have paid for a few months before it happens. So I'm gonna have to do it.
This week, I did the run 1min/walk 2min intervals.
I did it Monday with Amy, Wednesday with Amy & Sasha, and Friday with Kyan (Anne's dog). I did every run outside, with the purpose of getting used to hitting pavement. I'm very proud of myself for having completed an entire week's worth of running practices. I think the second run (Wed) was the toughest on my body. I was tired (lack of sleep last weekend and early week), sore from Mon's run and taiko on Tue, and cranky from work. I've been able to relax a tiny bit more since then, and I've been stretching a lot...which I think helped tonight's run.
I'm excited to learn to run with my pals, and I really feel like this is it. This is the time I'll finally finish the running program. I probably won't increase the intervals every week like the Running Room's classes did...but I hope I can get my 3 runs in every week, no matter what interval I'm working on.
MOTIVATION REMINDER:
Sasha & Amy (my running partners for this week) - We can't give up if we don't get the 3 runs in every week. We just need to do our best. All of our lives are busy and stressful and complicated at times. And sometimes, we just need a day off to do absolutely nothing. So we have to remind eachother not to get discouraged if we don't get 3 runs in a week. Also, I'm here with you...if you only get 1 or 2 runs in one week and need to continue the same interval the following week...I'm doing it with you. It's only more practice...I won't be losing anything. We can take our time doing this.
And Sasha - we made a pact to help eachother lose weight. Let's do our best and let's stick with our guts to lose our guts!
Wednesday, January 2, 2013
New Year, New Goals
Soo...Yup...I've been M.I.A. from here this past month.
I moved and I'd like to weigh myself from the same scale for consistency. I left the scale at my previous place and plan on weighing myself when I go there. This scares me because I'm used to weighing myself 1-3 times a week. Now it will only be a couple times a month. So it's scary to think that if I gained weight, it'd give me less time to try to lose it again. However, I hope that I don't ever find myself in that situation in the near future where I gain weight again. But I know you're not supposed to weigh yourself everyday, so I'll deal with it.
I weighed myself about 1.5 weeks ago and I didn't gain OR lose any weight. So I'm still 175, with a total of 10 lbs down.
I haven't worked out much, nor have I been trying to eat that well. I mean, I haven't been eating shit. But I just haven't been trying to eat well. I am proud to say that I still haven't given in to the fast food cravings. That, is a huge success for me thus far.
I canceled my LTF membership on 12/31 so I have until 1/31 as a LTF member :( I'm really sad about that. But I did join LA gym on 12/31 so I will be able to go to the gym whenever I want with Sasha. Which reminds me...I'm going to send her an email right now to schedule some workout dates because we haven't worked out together in a LONG time.
My goal for December to lose any weight was not reached. I will set the same goal for January.
I moved and I'd like to weigh myself from the same scale for consistency. I left the scale at my previous place and plan on weighing myself when I go there. This scares me because I'm used to weighing myself 1-3 times a week. Now it will only be a couple times a month. So it's scary to think that if I gained weight, it'd give me less time to try to lose it again. However, I hope that I don't ever find myself in that situation in the near future where I gain weight again. But I know you're not supposed to weigh yourself everyday, so I'll deal with it.
I weighed myself about 1.5 weeks ago and I didn't gain OR lose any weight. So I'm still 175, with a total of 10 lbs down.
I haven't worked out much, nor have I been trying to eat that well. I mean, I haven't been eating shit. But I just haven't been trying to eat well. I am proud to say that I still haven't given in to the fast food cravings. That, is a huge success for me thus far.
I canceled my LTF membership on 12/31 so I have until 1/31 as a LTF member :( I'm really sad about that. But I did join LA gym on 12/31 so I will be able to go to the gym whenever I want with Sasha. Which reminds me...I'm going to send her an email right now to schedule some workout dates because we haven't worked out together in a LONG time.
My goal for December to lose any weight was not reached. I will set the same goal for January.
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